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刚才趴在图书馆大木桌上睡了一小觉，披着爸妈邮来的明黄大衣很温暖。

醒来的时候窗外雨已经停了，忽然觉得大地很干净。

我终于可以微笑着面对处处是回忆的紫金港。

我终于可以怀着一颗感恩的心来想起所有事。

最近在听卫兰，粤语很好听。：）

Sorry I have to leave, my 100% boy.

Do you remember the wistful story I told you when I sat on the back

seat of your bicycle?

I still keep all the text-messages in the locked folder named “I will

never forget”. I still use the cup, the comb, the mirror and the

barrettes you gave me. I still cherish every unforgettable moment I

shared with you. I prefer to remember them rather than the

excruciating memory of the recent week.

It is just a kind of human instinct to escape when it hurts so much. I

am weighted down by those things. So I just can’t hold on any longer. I used to have the illusion that we could make all the things get back to where they were. However, the fact made my hope fade. We are both

in a weird mental state. Your attitude is totally different with mine. I

know all the things happened are a severe hurt to both of us and we

haven’t recovered from it yet. So sorry I have to leave.

Thank destiny that we met each other. I always regard it like a miracle. When I was by your side, I felt like there could be no two hearts so

open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison. I thought we were

meant for each other. Anyway, thank you for giving me that kind of

fantastic feeling. Maybe I could never feel that way again for the rest of my life.

The shining stars over your window will supersede me. They will keep staring at you and never turn their back on you. They will say “Good

night” to you before you fall asleep. They will give you endless love

and resplendent light.

As the saying goes, “If you love something, set it free.” Sorry, I have

to take a back step. Set you free. Set myself free.

In the end I want to say that love is all around. There’s no hatred at all. All of the things between us have their roots ingrained in love.

Farewell, my 100% boy.

和耗子在图书馆自习，高英的作业写了一半，突然又忍不住眼泪，于是奔到图书馆人迹罕至的楼梯。

记得预科的时候，和周围的人群还非常生疏，并不总有同来同往的朋友。

常常一个人背着重书包到图书馆来。

累了就到楼梯那里去打电话，或者读英语。

那样的日子多么美好。

图书馆才是我的爱人。

永远不会背叛我的爱人。

《爱很简单》。《月亮代表我的心》。《寂寞的季节》。《Right Here Waiting》。

《有星星的晚上》。《By My Side》。《华丽的冒险》。《告诉我》。

什么时候我听到这些歌的时候能够不再心悸了，就意味着我已能如看云卷云舒一般看你了吧。

突然想起来，你第一次给我唱的歌是《寂寞的季节》。

而我给你唱的是Cheer的《告诉我》。

两首歌都是你选的。

“那些爱过的人，心是如何慢慢在凋谢。”

“你的改变太冷漠，我没有勇气大声地说。”

是不是悲凉的结局，从一开始就潜伏着了呢。

默默祈祷，在我18岁到来之前让我一次把成长的痛苦全部经历完吧。